Like
many Americans of my generation, I know exactly where I was fifty years ago
this day: sitting in my 5th grade Catholic elementary school
classroom, getting grilled in geography by Sister Evelyn Marie, when Gus the
janitor entered the room and whispered something to her; and then, with the
strict admonition that we were to study our maps of Uruguay, she disappeared,
and then reappeared to ask one of the older girls to take the lesson, something
almost unheard of. Then there was a hurried conference with another nun, their heads so
close together that their faces could barely be seen beyond the black veiling
of their bonnets, with the bordering of white lawn.
Then
the news: The President has been shot while visiting Dallas, and we all sank to
our knees in prayer, and some of the girls began to cry, and then the
questions, “Why would someone kill President Kennedy?”, and the reply, “We
don’t know, but we are calling your parents to come and take you home, those of
you who can walk, are free to leave after prayers on the PA.”
Then
the sound of the principles voice, Sister James: “People (we were never
addressed as children), a great tragedy has happened, we must pray for the President
and his family, ‘In the name of the Father . . .” the moment seemed surreal,
and this our first Catholic president.
No one
knew at the time if this was a plot by the Communists (our sworn enemy), what
we would now call a terrorist attack, and no chances were taken by the national authorities, as they were.
From
that moment on, it seemed that we were engulfed – all of America – in a swirling
maelstrom of disbelief, fear, and anger. How could this happen? Who was
responsible? Why, oh why?
We
watched the Zapruder film in horror, and watched as the President’s hands flew
to his neck and then his wife Jacqueline, in her shocking pink Chanel suit, and matching
trademark pillbox hat, leaning into hold him, and then climbing on the back of the
presidential limousine, to do what?
Later
we learned, much later, that she was trying to retrieve a piece of JFK’s skull
to place it back onto his head to save his life.
And then
returning from Mass that following Sunday another horror when Lee Harvey
Oswald, the alleged assassin, was shot on live TV.
Our innocence,
if there ever was, one, was fading.
Much of
the horror was made up of disbelief because John F. Kennedy was such a vital
man: war hero, Harvard graduate, author, member of Congress, Senator, wit, and
bon vivant; a shining example of what post-War America was made of – or, as David
Halberstam noted, the best and the brightest, he who had taken Irish America,
beyond prejudice, and who as the first Roman Catholic president, had “made it,”
in the parlance of the day.
He
moved with grace and authority, the trademark smile, often a grin, especially in
those still wonderful press conferences where his wit, and intelligence soared,
and delighted, even to his own bemusement, as he batted questions with the ease
of man much older, and wiser.
Accompanied
by his beautiful wife they both looked, and seemed more like movie stars than
movie stars. Move over Liz Taylor!
Who can
forget those glittering White House dinners with Pablo Casals, Robert Frost,
Frederick March, and the sight of the Shah of Iran (then an ally) and his wife
Farah on the portico of the White House, and then after dinner, entertainment
by the Joffrey Ballet, where a Jerome Robbins ballet was performed, "Ballets
U.S.A."
Jackie, as we knew her, ushered in an awareness of the best that America could bring, in music, in décor,
and in a newly restored White House, and on Valentine’s Day, 1962, in a televised special we could “ooh
and aah”, over the results, as she spoke in that whispery voice, the details of provenance and acquisition.
Her appeal, as was his, was incandescent, but,
perhaps JFK, tongue firmly in cheek, said it best, in during the 1961 state visit to Paris, “I am the man who accompanied Jacqueline Kennedy to
Paris!” The line brought down the house, as we would say, in America.
Jackie shimmering
in gowns by Oleg Cassini and for the dinner at the Versailles palace, a Givenchy (as a tribute to the French),
even managed to dislodge the frozen visage of President Charles De Gaulle, who
when discussing French history with her, told the President that his wife knew more
than a French woman.
Of
course, all was not glitter and glamour, as the long-suffering travails of
Black Americans began to simmer and rage, as they demanded their rights, and
were met with snarling dogs, fire hoses, and the contorted face of Gov. George
Wallace of Alabama who vowed that Negroes (as they were known then) would not
enter Alabama schools, and stood relentless in his vow for segregation, in the school's doorway, as the president and Robert planned their strategy.
This
relentless drumbeat was not settled until after Kennedy’s death, with
legislation by President Johnson, but it gave us one of the administration’
most soaring speeches,
when Kennedy said, “We are confronted primarily with a moral issue.... It is
as old as the scriptures and is as clear as the American Constitution.... One
hundred years of delay have passed since President
Lincoln freed the slaves, yet their heirs... are not fully free. They are
not yet freed from the bonds of injustice... this Nation... will not be fully
free until all its citizens are free.... Now the time has come for this Nation
to fulfill its promise.”
The loss seemed irreparable even with the state funeral
that Monday, when the figures of President De Gaulle, Prince Phillip, Emperor Haile
Selassie, and King Baudouin
of Belgium walked down 16th street behind the coffin and
the rider- less horse, in Washington, DC, to St Matthew’s Cathedral where the
funeral Mass was held.
Now, on the 50th Anniversary of Jack Kennedy’s
death we seem to have shrunk, to have lost our size, and something of our
spirit, even the sense of majesty gained that Monday, is lost.
But, despite the Irish wake that is in our hearts today,
let us amidst the keening, remember the bright light that was his, (as his wife
described it that Thanksgiving for the old "Look" magazine); and remember the
promise, the hope, and the dash, of our fallen hero, and his lady, that once
there truly was a Camelot.





